Monday, January 13, 2014

What can we do?

Life has a way of moving forward regardless of how hard it is. Days pass, months pass and years pass and before you know it, decades pass. 

Each day seems a trial but each day ends and starts anew God willing. How you choose to view each day you have is up to you, regardless of how hard life is. This is something I am learning day by day. I know I have something to see that some don't. 

I have small children, I get to see the daily wonder in their eyes. I see my little nearly 7 month each day learning something new. In fact, in a 3 week time frame she has learned to sit up, sit up on her own from a laying position, crawl on her knees, pull up and cruise... If you think about that.. That is pretty amazing.. If a baby can do that.. What can we do?

Saturday, January 4, 2014


Depression is something I battle with. If there are those that read this, that have this same battle then you know how hard it is to function sometimes and yet I must. Every Single Day. 

Depression is like a dense fog that you cannot see your way out of. The fog is so very dense, you want to just close your eyes and rest and hope the fog recedes on it's own. That rarely happens, but that is exactly what you want to do every day. Getting out of bed is a chore, eating is a chore, getting dressed is a chore, leaving the house often near impossible. 

Functioning to the base minimum takes supreme effort. I am depressed right now, but I get up every day, I fed my kids, I read to them, I school them, I play with them. I take them outside to play, but it takes everything I have to do these things. I am tired all the time, not just tired but bone tired. 

I usually feel alone, silent standing far from shore. I want to wade to shore but the effort seems just to much. I want to scream that I am alone on this shore, but my voice is quiet unable to make a sound. 

Do I take pills for this,  yes I do. It is that hard, but pills can't beat back all depression. Sometimes depression is just so intense that pills can't create a balance where none exists, The pills are what allow me to function to the high level I do amonst the dreary battle of hopelessness that fills me. 

I am a christian, a follower of Christ, of Jesus of the One true God. Because I am I choose to not accept that I am beaten by this depression. I choose not to allow it swallow me whole. I stand against it. Yes, some days I have to let it be but other days I stand and fight. I swim towards the shore, because my God is stronger than this. He is stronger than anything and with his help I can beat this. 

I write this in hopes that perhaps there are those that fight depression like me, it helps to hear you are not alone and you truly are not. It will not defeat you. I stand for you, I pray for all those that are like me and fight this seemingly hopeless hard battle of emotions that defeat you. I pray for each of you. You may not believe in God and that is okay, you don't have to. I believe in him, and so do many others likely someone you know, and all those are praying for your healing. 

Thursday, January 2, 2014

Devotional This Year..

I will be doing a devotional every day this year. I will post a synopis of each day. I will not be posting the entire bit due to the book being one that must be bought. If you would like to join me in this year, I will post the name and author of the book. 

Women's Daily declarations for Spiritual Warfare  by  John Eckhardt 

Join me!!!!! 

Declaration Day 2 (Jan 2nd)

I Long to meet with you...

I long to spend time with you every day. If you will only call to Me, I will answer you and show you great and mighty things that I can do for you, things that you do not know. I delight in the prayers in the prayers you pray to Me.... I will give you My Spirit's power to overcome the enemy. 

Jer 33:3, James 5:16, Ps 18:3, 66:20


I have waited patiently for you and you have heard my cry... Let those around me see and learn to put their trust also in you.

Declaration Day 1 (Jan 1st)

My word and power are all you need..

In my word you will discover the thoughts that I think about about you. I have desired that your lifebe filled with My great peace., not with the eveil and tyurmoil that you will find in the world, which the enemy will try to thrust upon you. My Word will help you to see the glorious futrue I have planned for you and will surround your life with the hope of overcoming the evil in this world through My strength and power......

Read.. Jer 29:11, Matt 10:1, Ps 72:19


Your Word tells me to call to you , and you will answer me and show me great and mighty things... which I do not know. I am calling out to you today!