Saturday, November 30, 2013


Today I am 40. I remember when forty was old. It seems like it was not that long ago that it was. However these days it seems so much less than old. It feels young in fact, 70 seems so much younger than it used to be. It seems a little unreal to me, that today I am 40. I have a baby that is 5 months old, that is certainly not what I saw 40 as. It is not a bad thing, just a different thing.

Things are starting to settle back down here. At least for me and my husband. Life is developing a routine. My dear fil, he has good moments and not so good moments. I wish I could make this easier for him. It is still so hard to witness or overhear his pain.

The girls are homeschooling 5 days a week. They do printables and they do tablet work with ABC mouse which is awesome by the way, if you have toddler/pre-k to 1st grade. It is wonderful. It has tons of printables, and an app to use that tracks what the kids did on it. Hundreds of songs, puzzles, worksheets, etc.  I will be at a later time be posting a lot of the free sites I frequent to assist those who are like us and struggle for money and homeschooling.

I am considering dying my hair Plum. Any opinions. I am currently in possession of dark brown and it calling me but I kind of want to do something different this time. I am talking real plum not Burgundy added to dark brown dye.. Hmmm I must ponder this for a few days. I decided upon the opinion of various others to leave off the haircut for now. I am just pulling it up a lot. I might try to find a way to wear it down if it was dyed though that will not be easy with a baby who reaches for anything and gets ahold of your hair and pulls it. Ask either of her older sisters. They will tell you.

Well my wonderful and favorite sister and my awesome nephew and niece are coming over shortly so I am off to get dressed..

Monday, November 18, 2013

Quiet but Struggling...

On the blog front, I have not had much to say. I have been quiet, but that does not mean it has been easy here. Things have been very tough, not just emotionally but financially as well as physically. As you all know my MIL passed away at the end of the month of October, it was so sad and continues to be.

The children are struggling still especially my middle child. She misses her so very much and her disappearance from our lives has made her be very clingy to me specifically. She wants to skype her, see her or just simply talk to her, to hear her loving sweet voice. I feel so sad for my baby girl. My older girl misses her too, but seems to have a greater understanding that she is with God. She loves her still but understands that she is better with God.

My dear father in law, well he is as well as he can be. I cannot fathom what his feelings are. Sadness sometimes surrounds him, his eyes reflect that pain that he feels inside. The loneliness, the aching pain of a love lost. The girls seems to sense this and sometimes just crawl all  over him.

Dr. O is in study mode. He will be taking the Step 2 in the next month or so. Keep him in your prayers.

For me, I have gone gluten free, and am in the detox stage. I am getting headaches, sometimes severe. However, my body is not as achy as it was and I don't have the same amount of gas that I have had for years.

We have geared up on our homeschooling. The girls are learning and we are learning the process together. I will post more about that later..

For those that pray, please continue to keep us in your prayers..