I must admit I got used to living in Southern California and it is not as if I hate it here. I just got used to living in a metro area. Of deciding that you wanted something late at night and driving 5 minutes to get it, deciding really at any time of day and being able to drive at maximum 10 minutes to get it.
Here, not so much. Everything is pretty much a minimum of 20 minutes away. Okay maybe not EVERYTHING. Sometimes it just feels that way. I don't hate it here at all, I just don't love it here. God I am sure made sure of that so that when it comes time to move in June, it won't hurt so bad.
I must admit, I miss my moms group, I miss my friends especially my dear friend J and her adorable son S. I miss hanging out and going for soda. Or just hanging out together while the kids play. I miss the feeling of home. Where I lived never felt like home per se but the area did. I don't know if that makes sense to ya'll but it is how I felt.
I miss having good internet a lot too. The internet where I live is awful with only other options of awful. I have to be sitting on top of the modem practically to get decent internet, forget going to another room. It ain't gonna happen. I called, they made it run faster for a little bit, and then back to normal nearly dial up. I guess when you live at the edge of the world, slow internet and driving 20 minutes is normal and you adjust to it.
I am enjoying living in a house (mobile) rather than an apartment. I am really enjoying the kids having their own room. I love that there is a yard they can go play in. I enjoy that the lazy, laze around easy going cat, spidy lives here and the kids can adjust to having an animal. So there are so great things about this.
I love that my honey finally got the car of his dreams. 10 years dreaming of a cheap little convertible seems so sad, but that is what happened. and .. finally we were able to make that happen. I am so happy for him that he got his little car. I adore it because it is fun and of course because he enjoys it so. I know some have made commentary about him being a father of 2 and soon to be 3 and having a 2 seater. However, the reality is for him to have a car that would fit the kids means a mini van.. We will already have one for me. No point in him driving a mini van to work everyday with no kids in it, when he can drive a cute little two seater convertible and enjoy his few moments before a hard day and a few minutes after a hard day.
Don't judge what you don't understand.
I do wish the kids would sleep through the night though. I am ready to be able to get some sleep before D comes along. There are so great nights where they sleep all night in their own rooms, but does not happen every night. That would be awesome. So people have kids that sleep through the night at 4 days ( sister) but others are like me and working on over 4 years of not making it through the night. It will happen someday.
Ok.. I am up to late but was rearranging and moving into a different bedroom and I will suffer for this tomorrow.. but worth it..