Saturday, January 28, 2012

Blessed and Excited!

Today was a productive day, well yesterday since it is after midnight. I feel accomplished. I did quite a bit today and feel like I am getting a grip on my life again, it feels like it had gotten out of control. I have been praying about it a lot and it feels like God is giving me the ideas, tools etc to make it happen.

Today though I did:

  • Went to the doc
  • washed some diapers
  • worked on my new website, got some understanding about how it works, and created some cool stuff that I needed on there that it did not provide
  • found out how to let the site accept credit cards without it costing an arm and leg
  • did some photo editing, learning to adjust photo sizes the way I needed to
  • had family night
  • filled my scrips
  • worked on my spreadsheets, got them all updated and new formulas input
It felt like I did more than that. However, I will take it. God has given us so much and yet sometimes it hard. I do feel like today was one of those days where God tells you it does not have to be hard, if only you will step back and let him control it. In our humanness, we try and try to control things and it only goes pear-shaped and gets really hard to do. We try to correct the situations and if you let God handle it. He will fix it in his time and without you stressing. I am certainly not saying it is easy but it what we are supposed to do. 

I feel blessed and excited today. I feel like God has given me the chance to get things back in order. That the time for all the chaos has passed. Thank you Father God. 

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Little Eyes and Little Ears...

There are some things that feel beyond my control, that aren't. I don't know if that makes sense to ya'll, but it does to me. It simply means that sometimes I do stuff that feels like I can't control it but the reality is I can if I will just stop and pay attention. I can control it. I just don't as I should.

There are some things that must change when you have children. There are a LOT of things that change when you have kids and more than must. They are a must to me, maybe not to others but to me, yes a must.

Things like:

  • Cussing, that has to be cut out, cause if it is not you will hear it out of the mouth of your kid and you will know they are saying it because YOU said. I am here to tell you that is an awesome moment in your parenthood. It makes you feel like you should go pick up the factitious parent of the year award.
  • Anger, that crap can cause you act badly and it teaches your children to act badly as well. 
  • Allowing other people to talk ugly to you in front of your kids, that just teaches them they can do it to.
  • You have to think about everything you do and watch and listen to, because little ears and eyes are watching and listening and learning.
  • You have to make sure that others follow that example when you are around or you have to leave if they don't.
  • Be aware of how YOU treat others, because you are again TEACHING your kids. 
  • Every moment of every day is a teaching moment for you to your kids. Use it wisely.
  • Praying every night, talking about God. You are teaching your children a valuable lesson they won't learn if you don't share with them. You are teaching them about God and what faith is. 
The reality is this.. When you have little kids every single thing you do and say, everything you watch and listen too, every person you hang around teaches your kids how to act, how to speak, how to treat others, how to be treated themselves.

Friend.. Enemy.. or a Frienemy (Thanks Mona)

There always seems to be something that keeps me awake .. late... It is rarely the same exact thing, but there are some culprits that seem to be a problem.

  • Facebook, sometimes friend  and sometimes enemy ... to quote a friend.. perhaps a frienemy.
  • Ravelry, so many forum posts that are interesting, so many patterns to look at, so many projects people have made to ooohh and aaahh  at and wonder if I can do that.
  • Jewelry, I get so wrapped up in my ideas for a new something and when I start working at it. Time just gets away from me. Ideas for my shop and of course the fun of acting creating the products. Definitely a frienemy. 
  • Knitting, often a problem and definitely another frienemy. I love it so much. I enjoy the feel of the yarn, watching a project take shape and become something, especially if it is for someone else. 
  • Netflix Streaming, not as often a culprit, but enough of one to deserve a mention in this list. 
  • Spotify, a new culprit. I can get lost in the music to choose here.
  • Pinterest, many of you know what I am saying here. It is so easy to get lost in the land of Pinterest. There are so many wonderful ideas to be pinned, liked and commented on. That is not to mention the ones that suck you in even more and delve further into how to do something. Yep a definite Frienemy.
There probably more but these are some culprits to my late night adventures that always hurt at 730a when my kidlets get up. Yep.. It is going to hurt tomorrow when the oldest says "Mommy, you get up now, I'm hungry." I will drag myself out of the bed bleary eyed and wishing , wishing I had gone to bed earlier. I will get her the cereal and I will sit zombie like while the kiddo's eat. At some point within the hour I will start to function but I will still be wishing.. wishing I had gone to bed earlier.. 

When oh when will this war with myself stop. I think with this post. We shall see.. 

Friday, January 20, 2012

Mittens.. Lovely Little Mittens..

Aren't these adorable.. I am super proud of them. My very first pair of mitten made. I admit I tried another pattern and it came out mittenish... but not a true mitten.. To quote my local yarn store personage.. "the cuff is too short, the mitten is too long, and the thumb is too wide".. These however are beautiful.. They were made for an adorable little boy who lives in very cold weather. I hope he loves them as much as I do.. 

Now ya'll know you wanted to see what I have made recently... =) I just love knitting!! It brings joy to me and so many others.. LOL 

Starting Something new

I am starting something new. I have started my own company. Crickett's Cottage. My sister came up with the name. It is super cute. I make jewelry and wine charms right now. I will add to it as I expand my skills. I am loving making the jewelry and it is so much fun to be helping my family out.

So far we have created an Etsy page and a Facebook page. I am not sure exactly where I will go with it. I am hoping to be able to truly help my family out with this. I have fun with it and people get to wear and use some beautiful jewelry or wine charms.

Dr.O is super supportive. He is such an amazing guy. I am still learning after almost 6 years of marriage that is he such a wonderful guy to be married to. I am so thankful he is my guy. That he is the father of my lovely little girls.

I will post a couple pics here so ya'll can check em out, feel free to check out either the etsy page or the Facebook page.

I don't know what God has planned for us but for now I am enjoying this.

Saturday, January 7, 2012

2012 The year of preparation.

2012 will be a year of preparation. A year of anticipation. A year of waiting, watching, learning, growing but not of true change. This year there will be a lot to prepare for, but not for 2012. This year we will be taking steps to prepare for and anticipate the changes that will occur in 2013. Next year will be our year of change. This year though we are going to have a tough road.

I will be stepping back consciously and letting Dr. O do what he has to do to prepare for COMLEX and away rotations. He must get more studying in than he is right now. COMLEX PE2 will be here before we know, preparation is key. He is already looking into where he wants to do his residency and some places are right next door (well practically) and others are across the country(literally).

As Dr.O's family we have adjust to all this and accept the lack of time we get to spend with him. This however is a life long job. He will always be somewhere doing something that requires him to not be home. We will love on him when he is home and accept when he is not. I am sure I will have days where I am totally accepting of this path and others where I hate it.

The hardcore reality is that there are things in everyone's life they don't like that they have to accept. Each family has something unique that is a challenge for them. This just happens to be ours. It also happens to be a lot of other medical families challenge.

I don't personally like spending tons of time away from my honey. I am perfectly fine with him doing his own thing at home, but I like him to be AT home. I have struggled with this for a long time but I guess it is good that I still struggle with it. It means I still am so in love with him that I miss him when he is not here.

L and V are learning and growing and L totally understands that Daddy has to work. She does really miss him when he is not here and has not quite grasped the concept of why we cannot call Daddy when he is at work and why we can't just go visit him when we pass his building (she calls it Daddy's building). V on the other hand is still a bit young for all that. She and L get super excited when they hear the key in the door that announces Daddy is home but V does not seem to inquire when he is not here.

So this year we will prepare for the coming year of change. I give all I am to God and to his  plan for me. He will provide for us in the same way he always does.

Remember Jer 29:11.. It is my favorite verse. It is my motto. God certainly knows what he is doing.

Sunday, January 1, 2012

New Day.. New Year

One of the coolest things about January 1st every year, is the idea that you have a fresh start. A fresh start on life almost. You can decide to do things differently that year and try to make it happen. It always makes me look back and see what I could do differently and decide for the coming year, my fresh start, what I will do next.

This new year, in it's very first day has been a good one. I spent the day with Dr.O's family. It was a nice day. I enjoyed it. It was fun watching my beautiful children play and learn together. I always enjoy watching their granddad with them. He blesses me every single time I see him with them, He loves them so much he shines with it.

We are in a difficult spot financially again. I don't like that. I do not enjoy having to ask family to help out again. We did so good though this time with our money. Man, I learned how to stretch a dollar in 2011. I wonder how much further I will learn to stretch it in 2012. God provided though, I sold some of the earrings I make. It was a Godsend for us at this time. I really enjoying making the earrings and it would be wonderful if they filled in the gap for us.

I am praying this year to be better this year than last and I have an opportunity to start fresh on this .. New Day.. New Year...